To cure sometimes, to relieve often and to comfort always

Assalamualaikum and hi everyone. i write this within 15 minutes and no proof-read pun so sorry for any typos!

Because to cure sometimes, to relieve often, and to comfort always.

29.11.18

It was a very long day biarpun baru jam 11. Gerak pergi hospital jam 7:45am. And I started to review bed allotment. For bed allotment aku dapat dua katil kat male surgical ward. Bukan setakat dua katil, tapi dua2 tu depan kaunter nurse which is critical punya patient lah. Semalam dua2 kosong, hari ni dua2 penuh. Lepas review, fill in kan logbook, gerak ke femal surgical ward. Ada bed-side-teaching. Bed side teaching ni salah satu azab dia is Dr akan Tanya macam2. It is scary. kadang, seminggu sebelum BST tu pun dah start tak lena tidur.

Habis BST, aku pergi clerking patient kat male surgical ward. Review patient2 lain. Lepas rasa kaki cam nak patah tu, dekat pukul 11 am, aku rehat jap sambil tunggu next BST aku pukul 1130. Sebab BST kitorang kat Femal Surgical ward, aku pun tunggu kat situ. Alang-alang tu nak tengoklah jugak procedure apa available.

Pastu ada sorang House Officer tengah withdraw blood kat sorang patient yang baru admitted. The lady is so old already. Since I need another observation for phlebotomy, so aku tunggu lah.

The HO started to talk to the auntie saying, nak ambil darah. Nak tahu apa auntie tu cakap? Auntie tu taknak ambi darah. Nak nak bila Dr cakap Dr nak ambil dari blood vessel kat belakang tapak tangan tu.. which is very painful. Serious tak tipu. Bagi aku pun sakit.

So I don’t know what to do, I speak in mandarin, saying that It’s going to be a while je.

“Oh, you know Chinese? Good, speak Chinese with her”

Suddenly the auntie pegang tangan aku and gengam kuat-kuat. Bila Dr nak cucuk, dia tutup mata rapat2 and genggam kuat tangan aku. Omg, it breaks my heart. Sorry nenek. It hurts. I know. Sudahnya first attempt tak dapat darah! Cuba lagi guna vein yang dekat dengan ibu jari. Tak dapat jugak! 4th attempt barulah dapat. Finally.

Alhamdulillah 6^th days I learnt so many things

Sometimes, we don’t have the ability to elevate the pain of someone. But the least that we can do is, comfort them..

And it was tiring sebab BST habis jam 12:30 pm. Seminar mula pukul 2 petang, dan aku tak sempat dapat lunch sebab tak cukup masa satu,, , tak berapa ada selera pun satu hal. Habis seminar pukul 330pm, and aku balik tidur jap sebelum pukul 5 balik hospital balik.. on-call pukul 6pm-9pm tapi berasa nak tengok patient kat surgical ward, sebab tu pukul 5 dah gerak pi hospital. Bolehlah dekat sejam tengok case note. Tak rasa nak clerk or buat PE masa ni.

Masa on-call pun boleh tahanlah jugak. Mula-mula tak busy mana.. naik pukul 8 lebih, aih, penuh.. macam2 cerita ada. Seronok sebenarnya on-call kat emergency department. Tapi tu lah, diorang busy sikit. Syok sngat tengok case, dekat pukul 10 baru gerak..

Rabu haritu masuk OT.. nak patah kaki berdiri dekat 4 jam. macam mana lah jadi surgeon. laktak ah cane pun, im still going to make myself a surgeon. insyaAllah. amiin.

Kisah hari ni pulak, pagi aku just duduk rumah study. Cover anything that should be covered. Petang gerak pergi hospital, nak review case note. Habis tu aku cari  Dr untuk mintak cop. Nampak HO ni cam baik, aku pun mintak lah. Aku Tanya House Officer tu

“Dr balik pukul berapa?”

He looked at me and laughed

“Sy pun tak tahu”

Im laughing inside. sounds pathetic. Balik pun tak tahu pukul berapa. Dahlah pagi-pagi dah terpacak kat ward dah.

The thing is—semua orang penat, semua orang exhausted. It depends on you untuk treat everyone nicely or not.. give some kind words.. and yes, seriously i need it right now ;)