No one ever told me
that I will be facing 10 examinations within 2 years including one Professional
Exam. And no one ever told me that ill be having extra exams for my generic and
elective courses each semesters. The pressure, well, no one ever exposed it to
me or I was too ignorant about the facts of a medical students. Well, social media is where people masked it with all the happiness of their lives with
only 2% of their pathetic story.
I stepped into this
medical world with so many stories that were untold. That only you will know once you stepped into this programme.
Despite of all the dark
side, the hardships that I had gone through, it made me appreciate of those
small little things, which you will take it as granted unless it is taken away
from you, before.
Housemates, foster
family, research, my team of APYQs, it was a tremendous experience that will forever be in here, in middle mediastinum (read:heart).
Seizing the good and
take the bad things as a part of a learning process, is something that you cant
run away. When life give you a lemon, make yourself a lemonade. If life knocks
you down, rise up, even no one is there, offering their hands.
Dear parents, or future
parents,
If one day your kid got straight A’s for SPM, CGPA 4.0
for their foundation/pre-degree or any equivalent result that qualified them to be in the medical
programme, please, please, please don’t ever forced them into this programme,
unless they are really willing to suffer, and have a great enthusiasm to be
part of this healing profession, then go on. Or else, you’re going to lose you
kid, and they’re going to hate you for their lifetime.
Parents of medical
students,
Give your whole support
to them, be a good listener. Monitor them and extra careful when they have
nothing much to tell. Don’t let their feeling get buried deep inside into their
heart.
It was a pathetic
situation seeing my batch mates sleep for just 4 hours daily, coffees in their
blood, becoming depressed with all kind of exams, expectations by the mentors
and so on. Some even don’t sleep during examination week.
Well, we, medical
students knew the importance of sleep during the night and how it helps us with
memory consolidation but we are to scare of sleep because of the deadlines, the
notes hat piled up like no endings. Thinking like sleeping soundly for a decent
6-7 hours is a crime (well definitely sometimes, I AM part of them. I cant help it.
For the past two years
I’ve been comforting myself that exams is something but not everything. Aishah
is going to be well. Keep repeating that, I was, and am.
The take home message(amboi)
from this lengthy post is that, we will
be always be thinking that this is something, I need to score this, I think I
did it badly, I feel bad, I think making me breathing wasted the oxygen supply
of the Earth. (Ok over, hyperbola tahap petala kelapan), the thing is that,
Have some of your time
to enjoy, to count the teardrop from the leaves, to dance in the rain, or just
listen to the purr of a cat while they’re eating or sleeping.
Have some of you time,
spare them to your family especially parents, put them before everything else. If you doubtig of going back home or not, then you should really go back home. They only lives once, and you know in the future, you would wish that you spend more
time with them, and make them as your utmost priority.
Have some time and sit
back, let others that wanted to surpass you badly, surpasses you. There are
things that worth your wrinkles, so make sure you use them well in a useful, on
more important tasks.
Love, Aishah.
