Interview Medic UPNM

Assalamualaikum and hi everyone. 

Okey, the thing yang korang kena tahu, kalau kemasukan lepasan Matrik/Asasi/STPM ke UPNM bukan sebagai budak kadet tau. Sebab kalau budak kadet kau akan dapat elaun. Tapi kalau kemasukan lepas Matrik/Asasi/STPM dipanggil civilian. 

Kena join PALAPES. Bersyukur pulak aku letak UNIMAS first choice dalam UPU dulu. Tapi yang bestnya budak kadet ler.. Elaun dari MINDEF.. doctor tentera graduate pangkat tertinggi oi… ok bye.

Disebabkan tu jugaklah, interview haritu takde screening untuk larian semua, check up bla..bla..semua. Cuma datang untuk interview je.

So interview untuk Ijazah Sarjana Muda Perubatan kat UNIMAS tarikh dia tak jauh beza pun dengan interview UNIMAS. Harini UNIMAS, esoknya UPNM. Heh.

Okey, so UPNM tak panggil ramai pun untuk interview dia. Tak sampai 40 kalau tak silap aku. Kuota dia sikit je pun tak silap aku. Interview dia by group ya.. by group. The thing about by group is that, you have to fight among yourselflah untuk jawab. Satu group 5 orang. Obviously dia akan pilih sorang, ken. Heh. Bagi aku interview dia agak bias. Sebab dia tekankan sorang tu yang merupakan anak rakan panel. Maknanya panel tu kenal bapak dia.

Soalan dia Tanya.

Kenapa pilih UPNM?

Kenapa nak ambil medic kat UPNM?

Ada pernah telibat dengan aktiviti berasaskan kesihatan? Macam PBSM ke?

Dan maaf dik, aku stress sangat the way dia interview sampai akak taknak recall.

Habis interview tu, aku berborak dengan kawan yang sama group tu. She said the same thing, the interview session agak pressurelaa as compared to her experience interview kat UNISZA. Maybe because by group kot.. we have to fight to talk and give ideas. So competitive. Everyone being selfish. So basically I just love interview individually because you can think dengan tenang and no need any urge untuk jawab ke apa. Think carefully, then answer.

Habis tu, naik kereta ternampak sorang student.. baju putih seluar hitam, pegang beg something like case… running.. running dengan style bak hang. Kagum aku.

Okey that’s all from me.

Love, sam

Berhentilah Jadi Selfish. Sekejap je pun takpa.

Assalamualaikum.
Beberapa hari yang lepas, kawan aku hantar gambar kat kat aku. Ni gambar dia.

Sekolah lama dia and dia sebaya aku.
I'm not quite sure what had happened to his school. Maybe due to flood, or whatever things that can made this school looks like this.
Let me show you another photo(s) Taken from fanpage Raja Shamri. Belau actually tengah siapkan research bagi tesis beliau which is tengah ambil phd lah kiranya. And I have no idea macam mana dia handle family dia(dia belum berkahwin dan dalam konteks ni, emak dan dua orang adik perempuannya yang masih belum berkahwin), syarikat beliau dan misi bantuan banjir pascabanjir. And, beliau pernah mengendalikan satu slot untuk talk kat aku dulu.

Full Image atau ke fanpage Raja Shamri

Full Image atau ke fanpage Raja Shamri

Full Image atau ke fanpage Raja Shamri

I cant really imagine how women live there.

Dalam dunia ni, ada beribu-ribu, bahkan berjuta-juta yang tak mendapat makanan yang mampu mengeyangkan mereka.. sekurang-kurangnya sekali sehari.

Janganlah.
Jangan.
Jangan jadi macam negara Arab Saudi. Kaya-raya.Tapi bila ke sana. Rasa macam negara miskin je. Selain Masjid Haram, Masjid Nabawi dan tempat bersejarah dan hotel, tempat lain semua hampeh. Even Jabal Rahman pun bau hancing. Peminta sedekah merata-rata. R&R macam apa.

Bila dengar desas-desus menteri tu-ni-tu-ni holiday, beli tu-ni, anak bini berjoli sakan menda. Sedihlah. Sedih.

Dalam hidup ini, atau to be more specific, hidup aku, aku merasakan yang aku/manusia ni agak demanding. Mungkin not just me, tapi adik-beradik perempuan aku yang lain.Macam-macam aku minta nak-nak sebab nak masuk kolej dah ni. Handbag, kasut, bagasi. Kakak aku yang nak fly tu pun. Hehe jangan marah, kak. Kita sama je, demand melebih-lebih.

Sekiranya, sebulan, bagi dekat mereka yang fakir sebanyak RM380(sebab aku baru total up barang yang aku beli untuk sebulan ni), agak-agak apa yang mereka akan beli? Mungkin stok barang dapur untuk dua bulan, baiki tu ini. Entah, aku tak reti nak fikirkan. Sebab aku pun tak pernah menyelami dan menyantuni golongan sedemikian. Aku bukannya orang berada. Tapi bila lihat orang lain lagi susah. Bersyukurlah Sha.. Syukur. Bermuhasabah. Berhenti demanding barang mahal-mahal. Kejap pun takpe. Handbag yang mak baru beli tu, aku pakai setahun. Janji.

Raja Shamri tu selalu sangat post berkenaan misi dia dan ahli beliau, known as the Third Force. And most of the time, bila dia upload gambar, I cant help it by scrolling laju-laju. Sebab rasa tak mampu nak tengok. Sebab tak mampu nak buat apa-apa. I joined, group PEMBINA untuk Pahang. But then, Pahang dah OK. Sebagai perempuan, berkali-kali aku bermonolog.  "Kan best kalau aku lelaki. Cuti selepas SPM boleh pergi tolong orang kat sana. Kalau lelaki, bermalam mana-mana pun ok. Kudrat ada.. Buat rumah bla...bla..bla.." rasa macam aku menolak Qada' dan Qadar lah pulak.

18 tahun aku kat muka bumi ini. Mencapai 18 tahun paling menakutkan aku. Sebab aku akan berjumpa dengan pelbagai latar masyarakat, yang membawa 1001 sikap dan perangai. Ada perangan yang elok, Alhamdulillah. Ada perangan euw. Rasa macam nak bagi flying kick je. Jurulatih aku dulu banyak ajar movement untuk lawan lelaki. Tak sia-sia berpeluh-peluh setiap Rabu join Taekwondo sementara certain unit lain relaks je duduk dalam kelas. Contoh, Puteri Islam. Eheh.

Aku pergi driving class kat driving school pun dah berjumpa pelbagai jenis ragam manusia. Yang selfish. Yang makan duit rasuah. Yang perempuan serupa lelaki. Yang gatal terlebih miang. Yang playboy. Yang tak reti beza halal dan haram. Yang...yang...

Ok aku baru perasan satu masalah aku. Aku selalu lari dari point. Dan sekarang aku tatau aku dah tulis apa dan siapa audiens yang aku patut spesifikkan. Pak menteri kut. eheh.

Join satu event under iM4U. program rumah anak yatim bagi memenuhi masa cuti. dapat baju free

Wassalam alaikum.

LSPM: Love Script from Him.

Assalamualaikum.

Tasya, Zakirah and me

I just came back from meeting my friend. Best friend. Nur Hazirah. Telling the truth, I have no idea how wonderful God made us meet each other after separated for about 10 years. The last time I met her when I was 6 years old. And then, I met her again last year, when I was 17. So surprising and, the moment when we knew we were best friend before, the moment she knows I am THAT, Aishah, and I know that she is THAT, Hazirah. We thanked Allah SWT and amazed how wonderful Allah SWT's script.
 20-23 June 2014.
The program known as Jejak Gemilang PiSSA. Pissa stands for Projek Itervensi Semua Subject A1. Totally sponsored by Yayasan Pahang. about 240 students all around Pahang was chosen(I can still recall how the emcee kept saying that we are the chosen one.. the chosen one.. the chosen one. Macam Harry Potter lah pulak. hihi). Plus, the 4 days 3 night camp was held at Bukit Gambang Resort City. So I was like. whoaaa. And Yayasan Pahang sponsored about RM 1k per person including weekly tuition fees at SABS. Actually they have lots of centre and I got into SABS, Sultan Abu Bakar School. Every Monday, Tuesday and Thursday. 3-5pm
So back to the camp.
Students from SABS(consist of SMK TC, SMK TA, SMK IM, and others im not sure. but no SMK AA cause they went to SMART) arrived BGRC at Arabian Bay. I think so. Im not sure. Actually, few weeks before, I was there for my Mum's retirement ceremony. So, like, I was there, actually. And after checking in, my teacher was counting number of students per chalet. Each chalet consists of 2 rooms and two bathroom. A kitchen and a living room. After counting, pusat from SMART lack of two person. Because it should be 8 persons per room. Since the room consist of my friend's friend, Amira Natasya, Zakirah volunteer us to joined with SMART's group. SMK TA only sent two persons which is me and Zakirah. Basically, only Amira was from SMK AA, the others from SMART. I noted that students from SMART and Maahad Tahfiz consists of the largest number of students participated.
I'm not sure what is the MoU between Natasya and her friends from SMART, but, Tasya, Zakirah and I given a room. While the other 5 shared in a room. haha. nampak tak tak seimbang di situ.
The camp was awesome. Well, the lectures was fully in the ballroom. The food is amazing. Typical hotel food. Banyak pilihan(buffet) and well, terlampau banyak. Haha. tambahan pulak Zakirah and I suka makan. So. Well, we dont want the food being thrown away just like that. So, eheh.
Petang ada sort of riadah, then, we can have a walk around BGRC. actually the system is quite not safe. I went out one night. With Tasya. around 12 o'clock. If you went to BGRC, from our chalet to lobby is far away. and dark. and no one's there. No teachers. No guards. And even a worker came to our chalet at night. And teachers don't even t noticed.
Untill 22 June. The evening. around 6p.m. something, i was bored. my housemates were all gone. some were watching Running Man. Some were out. and some were sleeping. So I decided to watch TV while reading Biology at the living room. after about half an hour, Hazirah came out.(I not yet know that she is THE Hazirah).
We chatted.
Hazirah: Sekolah rendah dulu awak sekolah mana?
Me: Kong Min. Kat Beserah.
Hazirah: Ohh. awak pandai cakap cina lah ye?
Me: Alhamdulillah boleh.
H: Awak duduk kat ne?
Me: Kat Beserah. Awak?
H: Kat Pelindung. dekat dengan D Embassy
M: Oh. saya ada kawan sekolah tadika duduk kat situ dulu. dia dulu sekolah SMART jugak. Lepas tu pindah KISAS.
H: nama dia apa?
M: Haha. saya pun tak ingat. dekat 10 tahun tak jumpa. Tapi mak dia doktor.Kenal tak sesiapa yang mak dia doc kat area tu?
H: Erm takde saya rasa.
M: ohh.
H: Tapi mak saya doc.
Aku terdiam. remain silent for a while. Rasa macam. Aku angkat muka dari buku. Aku pandang muka dia. Deep. Tenung. MasyaAllah. I remember like, samar samar face of Hazirah when she was small. Then. Mulut I ternganga. Dia pun aku rasa. HAHA.
M: Awak sekolah Assunta dulu?
H: Haah.
Then I was like. I screamed. Haha
Tiba-tiba Zakirah keluar dengan rambut serabainya. HAHA. baru lepas bangun tidur lah tu. I told her what happened. Aku macam tak percaya. The person the I was looking for, yang I missed so much is right in front of me. Petang keesokan harinya dah nak balik, baru dapat tahu. How I wish we known each other lebih awal. Like, the first day. tulah. Masa awal-awal taknak taaruf. Terus masuk bilik mandi.
Tapi memang rasa macam. Kalau Zakirah tak kenal Tasya, Tasya takkan ajak kita orang tidur sebilik dengan dia. Dan kalau Tasya tak ajak tidur dalam bilik dia, aku takkan jumpa baliz Hazirah lagi, aku rasa. Dan, kalau cukup orang satu chalet dorang, mesti sampai harini aku takkan contact hazirah lagi.

Actually, I wasn't really sure why I post hese things. Love you, Hazirah

Hazirah, belah kanan I

LSPM: Rant on Studying in School of Medicine. Egypt.

Assalamualaikum.

O mighty Allah, please fulfill my dream to further studies in MBBS. Amiin. I dont mind if only in local universities.

Lately, berapa kali dah aku buat parents aku, especially my Dad disappointed of me, myself. Im sorry, Dad. Serious talk. And what goes around,comes around and what you give, you give back. We call that as hukum alam. Karma. or what-so-ever phrases that can replace them. And this happened to me.

After completing my giga big SPM examinations,and received the results of the examninations, I can't help it by hating my self. I cant believe what I scored in the examinations. I scored 9As and 1B. (6A+ 3A 1B+). I dont even have any A- and look, I got B+. Aint this crazy. I was like.. I screamed, yelled to myself, scolded myself for being this stupid. I cried cried and cried.

With this kind of result, surely, I can't apply for MARA and JPA. IBDP is gone. UK.
I applied some sort of foundation bodies, like Khazanah.. Yayasan Terengganu and all that I got is disappointment.  How frustrated I was.

Yayasan Pahang do give opportunities and giving scholarship/eduloan for those who scored 8As and above. I didn't apply for it as, I'm not thinking of studying medicine in UIAM(the scholarship just for studying in UIAM) and I have no basic in Arabic which is totally like thrown me in CFS IIUM for two years. The duration of two years are like killing me. I wanted to studies in medicine or also known as MBBS/MD. The duration is quite long and... for me, tough. I have friends who are studying there and reading posts from student there, they said they really love to be a part of CFS IIUM but, it is quite competitive to studying in critical courses. Note that IIUM most of the student who got Founfation in Medicine mostly consist of SPM leavers who scored straight As and obtained many As.. I bet about 7 A+, maybe...

A couple weeks back, I joined a closed gorup Halatuju Pendidikan Selepas SPM. The issue is that... Yesterday and today, people keep of saying about furthering studies in Egypt. Deep in my heart I am disappointed and tired of myself.
After obtaining the result of SPM, I did whatever it takes to further studies in Egypt. I called, here, there, some foudations if there is any scholarship available. But hell, there's no. And when I was tired of accepting "No", "Sorry" or something like that, I stopped looking for scholarships. Nak pakai sponsorship pakailah tapi the point is, to negara orang. we dont know much and takde satu body pun yang betul2 akan jaga kita without a good foundation macam yayasan negeri, MARA and JPA. because dua agency ni kerajaan  and yayasan under kerjaan negeri, okeyy. So aku sibukkan diri aku dengan driving class lessons. 

Even though the driving class was held only about once or twice a week. I busied myself with some stupid things because of my fear of, my disappointment of well, there's not really much scholarship for me, as I got B+ for English. I did print out the form from Kemeterian Pengajian Tinggi, the form to apply for studying in Egypt, Cairo. Those clearance letter I had done filling them. But I din't sent. And yesterday, people in the group keep on talking about the results came out, I have the chance to further studies in Egypt and so on... Even more of then still has not scholarship, no loan applicable but, and most probably are self-spondored, deep in my heart... its killing me. And somehow, there's senior give some advices... motivates them that, dont worry, Egypt is okay, no corp d'etat, peace and so on, there got some organisation for malaysian students, you can apply for ZAKAT, foudation from your state, YAKIN, Yayasan Bank Rakyat and so on... most of them, saying about the chances who applied from KPT to further studies in Egypt are high and so on.

And I really, in a broken heart. O mighty Allah... I can't handle this feeling...

I want to be a part of Medical Students who are studying in Egypt. Seriously talk. So it's like...
totally...killing me.